SPEAK HEAVY

ALEX TEYEN | 23 | BLACK TONGUE

I was probably the closest to killing myself today than I have been in a very long time. Would have been so easy to just step off that platform and let that train run me down.
I’m not mad at my dad for what he said. It was very unsubtle and incredibly vindictive, and yet again he made it very clear that he thinks I enjoy causing misery with, in his words, all that made up bullshit that comes with me. But he was well within his rights to say it an I understand why he detests me. He has a comatose son that he cannot relate to whatsoever, a son that causes the woman he loves immeasurable pain because he can’t help himself and it’s killing her.
I cause more pain in this world than happiness and I’m too numb to do anything to change.
I wish I could just fade into nothing.

All life just end.

All life just end.

@devinvillains I wanna cry. I love you Ocean Water Twin 🌊🌊🌊 😭. If y’all ain’t speakin Villainese y’all ain’t speakin my language

@devinvillains I wanna cry. I love you Ocean Water Twin 🌊🌊🌊 😭. If y’all ain’t speakin Villainese y’all ain’t speakin my language

Changing up my style bit on that post goth flex

Changing up my style bit on that post goth flex

Literally have the best plans for my love’s Christmas present. May need the help of a few talented individuals though.

Hairs getting long

Hairs getting long

Fucking hate everything today. Cheering myself up by not dressing like a goth for once.

Fucking hate everything today. Cheering myself up by not dressing like a goth for once.

My anti-depressant lies in a Smith&Wesson. Don’t know how to make my anxiety lessen.

My anti-depressant lies in a Smith&Wesson. Don’t know how to make my anxiety lessen.